I am not fully here and I don’t know where the rest of me is

These days, it feels like half of myself is not with me. I talk to someone and I understand what he is saying but only at a bare minimum. I write down stuff but the grammar and spelling are haywire and words are near to the intended ones, but that’s it - just near. I am writing this blog post and my mind is already wandering somewhere else. 

I wonder what’s wrong? It’s like I don’t care anymore. I don’t think I’m unhappy, really. This is something nearer to apathy.

I really have to get back in shape. I have this idea that the new year will make everything right.