Where are you? Here and there

October 13, 2009

I want to post something crazy here. Like how you should never stop believing and just hold on to that feeling.

 

My unbearable optimism is unbelievable. I live the canned life of your average 21st century yuppie and yet I’m happy - in a way. There’s no way to speak of one way.

 

I was reading Poul Anderson’s novella the other day. It’s called “Brain Wave”. Overnight, animals and humans all over the world got exponentially smarter because the planet moved out of a magnetic field. Apparently we’ve evolved under this intelligence-inhibiting field for thousands of years. Predictably, chaos rained the first few months. People who have never had an original thought in their lives and spent most of it doing menial labor started leaving their jobs to look for a higher purpose. Wars were fought with even more ferocity as the underdogs learned advanced warfare within only a few days. Others spiraled down into a funnel of depression and then eventually, madness. 

One image which stuck to me was a man who was found by one of the main characters on the street. The man discovered existentialism and then, nihilism. He was babbling and obviously insane. I found that disturbing. 

I’ve been having weird dreams lately. It’s that time of the year again. The dreams are even weirder now though. Weirder because before they simply don’t make sense. Now they sort of make sense, but don’t.

 

One of my greatest fears at the moment is never making anything out of myself. I want to be relevant. I want to do relevant things. I have a feeling that it’s going to take at least a couple more years. Anyway, doubting one’s self is a self-destructive exercise. It’s pointless.

 

I am of the belief that one should never worry about something unless you’re sure there’s actually something to worry about.

 

 

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