The Things I Need To Get By

May 7, 2009

You know what I really need right now? I need a good, hardbound notebook. It shouldn’t be too big, it should fit in most of my hand and shoulder bags. I also need a black sign pen that has a light so I can see what I’m writing in the dark. I forgot to tell you though—why do I need a notebook and a pen?

 

I’ve long given up on being a fancy writer. These days, I mainly write about makeup and other useless drivel online. I never did manage to write a story and I’ve even stopped writing essays which at least tackles important issues like, I don’t know, politics and life and death. Therefore, as far as I’m concerned, I’ve stopped writing. Therefore, I need to start writing again.

 

I wrote because I wanted the world to know what I thought about certain things which I deemed important. I don’t find a lot of things important lately. A lot of things today as so trite and so shallow. If I do find things that are important, I’m busy chasing or ignoring them and I don’t have enough time to sit down and think about what they really mean. When I do find that time to think, I’m already long gone dealing with other newer important things—hence no time to write. Gosh, I need a flow chart for this, don’t I?

 

Anyway, between then and my laptop, I need a way to write down random things, random thoughts which mean a lot to me. I need something I can whip out whenever something occurs to me, be it day or night. I need something to keep track of myself. Blogging is no longer a good option because, come on, you can’t expect me to tell you everything about my life. First of all, you don’t care enough about me to know everything about it. Second, I don’t care enough about you to tell you everything about it. A notebook presents no such limitation. I can tell it everything I want and its only reader, namely myself, would like to know everything about what I just said.

 

After everything is said and done, I think I just miss writing words by hand. It’s such a charming little act, no?