Estrangement

July 22, 2007

So maybe I'm emo, the genuine kind of emo. I hate being branded that—it has such horrible connotations, like you feeling bad about something is a bad thing intrinsically and that you do it all the time even if there is actually no reason to. Pop culture nowadays is all about branding and stereotypes. Saying you're not like everyone else and that you're special and that your pain is unique fits you in a stereotype. And makes you emo.

 

I feel displaced and out of place lately. I don't like what I'm studying in school and I'm slowly gaining weight. Marco is a nice guy and he tries his best, but sometimes we miss out on some important points simply because our perceptions of the world in general do not match. What makes it all worse is that I had a falling out with my friends—it's my fault I guess, and I don't really want to start going about blaming anyone. Things just happen, and even though I feel resentment regarding this falling out thing, I just try to shrug it away. Things happen. They just do.

 
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