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Time Is An Illusion

May 2, 2007

Some months back, me and my former Spouse Equivalent had a memorable conversation. I posted it in my blogger for posterity, I dunno, maybe for some sort of masochistic joy when I read it again when I'm old and wrinkly and lonely. Anyway it reminds me of how everything is temporary, even this love thing, and that I should know how to put things in perspective during, not after, the experience. Here went nothing.

Me: Hunishan, what if we don’t end up together?

fSE: What made you ask that?

Me: Nothing really. It’s just that I’ve read some magazines and blogs lately where even relationships that lasted five or seven years ended. What if ours did?

fSE: Well, it won’t.

Me: How can you say that?

fSE: Because there’s something special about us.

Me: (laughs) They all thought that.

fSE: Remember our mantra? Stay together and stay away from each other?

Me: Yeah, but for how long will that be viable? Petitio principii.

Silence.

fSE: If it ever happens, we’ll get back to each other.

Me: How.

fSE: I don’t know.

Me: That’s the problem isn’t it? We don’t know.

fSE: Well…

Me: Well.

A month after, things were over. Sad. I really shouldn't try rummaging through my blogger when I'm in a horrible state like this. Brings sad memories back when they shouldn't be flitting around my curly head, really. I mean I have a great life right now and I suppose I am what you'd call a happy camper, but memories have a bad way of getting back at you during your weakest moments.

Especially. Especially when you write them down.

Posted by lizette at 9:38 am | permalink

Previous Comments

well, thats the best part. u dont know.

malay mo, u wont part and lived together for the next 60 or so years….

yikes, scary

Posted by paolosbrew at May 2, 2007, 11:41 am

indeed it is scary. anyway we’re over now. but i’d just like to post an actual conversation we had a month before things DID end. sads.

Posted by lizette at May 2, 2007, 11:50 am

Oh. I thought you deleted this entry. But I feel, I feel this tingling feeling…

Posted by Niko at May 2, 2007, 1:45 pm

what tingling feeling? i dunno maybe i just feel like resaying it again. if there is even such a word as resaying that is. which i don’t really care about.

Posted by lizette at May 2, 2007, 2:14 pm

everything won’t be worth treasuring if you knew about it already. just try to enjoy the thrill and the dread it brings. atleast you get to be happy with a slice of both worlds. just be glad with what you have now. and if it’s really a keeper then the heavens will find a way. =)

hey, your post got me thinking. thanks!

Posted by LeSLie at May 2, 2007, 3:45 pm

thanks too leslie.

the future is scary no? and i hate endings.

Posted by lizette at May 2, 2007, 4:01 pm

Well that’s the challenge, you know it will bring back memories when you write it down here on your page, however, you still did it! That’s good! You’re not afraid of something that will hurt you later on! Nice!

Btw, thanks for the advice! It does make sense! I’ll be thinking of that from now on! Besides my “so be it!” hahaha!!

Posted by Agatha at May 2, 2007, 7:14 pm

it was just a month. u never really know, coz after all who r we to say that love wont come back when it must leave one day? uy it rhymes ha.

Posted by aMgiNe at May 2, 2007, 8:50 pm

i guess that’s the unpredictability of life. we will never know when “something’s” gonna end. lol, hope im making sense hehe. nice read

Posted by totomai at May 3, 2007, 12:23 am

agatha: thanks for the visit and the encouraging words. i do mean what i say. some people are single because they don’t need a relationship although they might want it.

aMgiNe: my ex can be in either of the folllowing locations as of the moment and I am not kidding:

a. in some mountain being an NPA
b. in Australia running his dad’s company
c. in the Philippines driving jeeps for a living
d. in the Philippines driving jeeps for a living with a new girlfriend
e. in a hospital dying of diabetes and hypertension
f. in a cemetery dead of diabetes and hypertension

totomai: well then if so, life sucks. i want to kill life and gerritoffer with. keedeeng! thanks for getting your ass here again because you know, i luff your blog.

Posted by lizette at May 3, 2007, 9:53 am

love is eternity with punctuation

Posted by dave at May 3, 2007, 12:51 pm

you always say mind-boggling things like that dave. keep it up! my mind is best kept boggled.

Posted by lizette at May 3, 2007, 1:58 pm

i don’t know the situation, but i know things will look up in time sorry, all i’m capable of is cliche advice but i hope it translates to the friendly pat on the back that i intended it to be