Simple Documentation

April 2, 2007

I'm staying at home the whole day. With a period! Gods I have to write about menstruation one of these days in my main blog. It's probably one of the bigger problems of the female population, and one of the biggest problems of those men who put all female bitchiness under PMS. Well guys continue if you feel better about it. But PMS as an all-around-explanation can only go so far.

 

I've got nothing to do today but sountrip and convert songs for my mp3 player. I have four new burned CDs and I haven't really listened to them. Sure I hear them, but I haven't listened. It takes time for me to absorb music. Come to think of it, it takes time for me to absorb everything else.

 

And now I come to a realization. I skate by life not really paying attention to the important things. Sure I function well enough and react and socialize and communicate, but I don't absorb. For some reason there's invisible insulation between me and the rest of the world. It's kind of nice really. But I recognize I have to get out of my shell and live. The way most people do. And listen. The way most people should.

 

This summer I intend so make some changes. I don't like the way I'm going. Not the tangible way, like working, meeting my online friends, having a pseudo-relationship with a guy who's leaving me in a while—that's okay, I can handle that. But I don't like how the cogs and gears of my head and hypothalamus are functioning. They're slow and rusty. I can do better, and I will.

 

Simple documentation is not how people should live. And I'm trying to find something prfound to say after that line, but I don't have to explain anything else to myself, I think.